Giving Thanks: A Bitter Sweet Venture

As I sit here in Pendleton preparing to have Thanksgiving dinner with my dear family, I ponder what I have to be thankful for. So far, here's the list:

• Graduating college, which is a huge thing to be thankful for. I don't know that I ever thought I would finish.
• Having a supportive and encouraging family.
• A long term job in a kindergarten class that I absolutely love.

And that is where I hit a brick wall...

I have to leave my job on January 25th and either find a job or return to subbing. I would probably rather run myself through than go back to subbing after having my own class. Also, there is the issue of committing so much to this wonderful class and then just being done. I am not going to deal with that well. I wish I had thought of that before I started, but I wouldn't trade the time I've had for anything.

I have not had one day of work where I didn't want to get up and go! Everyday has been a thrill for me. I absolutely adore every child in my class, even the naughty one! How will this affect me in 2 months? Will I fall apart, or will I be able to just continue on with pre-kindergarten life? I honestly don't know.

As many of you may or may not know, I quite often wear my heart on my sleeve and am super compulsive when it comes to things that I love. That is probably not a great mix for doing a job that requires a thick skin and a level head, especially one that's "temporary". :)

I will never regret accepting this long term job, and I will always be indebted to Whitney for giving me this opportunity, but I am having to force my "giving of thanks" as I look ahead, which is very selfish of me, I realize, but its where I am.

Thank you God for showing me how much I love what I have chosen as a career. There is truly no doubt that I have made the right choice. Now, I just need some answers on what is next...so bitter sweet.